Walk With Christ

Tonight's Service was spectacular. I don't think I've ever been disappointed by any Sermons I've attended. I've gone to many Churches in the past, trying to find the right Family. Though I believe I have founded that special place. First Presbyterian Church. The Youth Leaders, and Pastors are such awesome people. I feel like I can walk my Walk with Him a lot easier and steadier.

My journey with God began in August of this past year. My Mom, younger brother and I were all down in Kentucky for a small getaway. While we were there, my Nana got really sick. We had gotten a call a few days before we left warning us about her current condition. She'd been sick for a while, though this time it was bad. I mean really bad. I won't go into the details, as you probably wouldn't like me anymore. Though it was just bad. Knowing something was terribly wrong with her, my Mom rushed my Nana to the hospital. We were away on a retreat, just my Mom, brother, Nana and I and had to call quits as my Nana was terribly sick. We got in the car and drove three hours straight back to Louisville. Once back in Louisville, my Mom told Abe and I that Nana needed medical treatment and care straight away. We were told to stay at the Hotel in the room doing whatever, while she took her Mom to the hospital. 

Fast forward a bit, I was talking on the phone with my Mom and she said that Nana had just been diagnosed with Bowel Cancer, and that it had been developing for quite a while. Not only that, but we were also told that she had only a few days, or weeks, or months of life left. That's when my heart opened up. Instead of turning to depression, I turned to God and began praying and writing poems for my Nana. Knowing that this was a dire situation, in which I needed counseling, comfort and love. However, there was no one I could talk openly to, except for God. So that's when I really asked Him to come into my heart. Since that day onwards, I've been talking with him on a regular basis. Knowing He's watching over me steadily. 

So what I'd like to share with you is that First Pres. has welcomed me with love, compassion, and most of all sharing. I feel like from the get go, I am part of their family. Even if I only know a few people right now, I know I can build more relationships with others as my God brings them into my life. 

Before I wrap up here - I've had a hectic weekend - I'd like to thank all of you that have walked this path with me to now. The doors that have been closed and opened for me are gifts and even more opportunities. So thank you and God bless you all. 

Thank for welcoming me to your family. I am really looking forward to learning even more about God. 

Thank you so much for loving me for who I am, and accepting my differences, and flaws. All of which I adore in you. ;) 

Maddie Briscoe

There's this girl who is battling stage 4 neuroblastoma. I just learned about this through Youtube, though find it very heart warming that she is always smiling, even through this scary time.

We go through life thinking our lives suck when we don't get the coolest phone, or we don't have the latest fashion. Though think about it, this little girl is suffering. Everyday she wakes up, thankful to have battled another full day through cancer. I am asking you all to bow your heads and pray for Maddie. I am going to attach the link to the video where I learned about this.

Maddie, we are all here for you. We love you, and hope you come out of the other end even more beautiful. Your smile is what keeps us going.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GmWjfRtdLA

God Bless,
Grace Miller

"I'm not gonna let it slow me down" - Nick Jonas

A few months ago, things began to go real crazy. My personality began to change, and I was experiencing strange symptoms. Though the time they all began, it was the same time my Nana died over in Kentucky, and my parents were going through a rough time.
It wasn't till now that we learned it was the onset of diabetes. Through all my behavior changes, it was my blood sugar level rising and lowering, due to the amount of insulin my pancreas was creating.
It is now Friday, January 28th, 2011 and I am finally home from the hospital. All this started this past Tuesday when I was taken to the doctor thinking all theses symptoms were caused by anxiety, because I suffer terribly from anxiety since 2009. On the way there I had mentioned I was itchy, so they had me urinate into a cup, and sure enough I was leaking sugar. The nurse did a blood test, and my level was in the 200's. Later that day I had to have some blood drawn. Which I did great, despite the fact I am totally freaked my needles. Basically any sharp objects. Later that day, my doctor called saying the results weren't that clear. But, that I had a yeast infection. She also said that I had to go to a Diabetes Specialist.
Wednesday my Dad, Mom and I all went to the Specialist. That's when this whole journey began. He looked at me and said, "You have diabetes. We have to draw some blood, but you do." He then went into detail to describe why. I then had to check into the hospital and spent the last two and half days on extensive training on what diabetes is, and how to properly care for it.
I was finally released today, and am now on my own to prick my own finger to check my blood sugar, and to give myself insulin shots. My biggest inspiration right now is Nick Jonas. Because he also suffers from Type 1 Diabetes, and yet continues to act, sing, and help raise awareness about diabetes.
I am writing because of what Nick has says about his diabetes. "I'm not gonna let it slow me down". And thats exactly what I am going to do, too. Also, my parents and I - though we are sad about the diabetes - we find it a miracle that we found it early, and know the answer to why I was feeling so terribly bad. And a message from God that He is always walking with us. I think it's sort of message why I was so into Nick and his diabetes before I was diagnosed myself. We'll never know, the real answer, but at least we know that I have diabetes, but can still live a normal life.
Your prayers are needed.
God Bless,
Grace

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Verse 1:
Wherever the sun sets
I wanna go there
Wherever the moon rises
I wanna be there
Wherever the gold is
I wanna find it

Chorus:
Sunsets
Moonbeams
Pot-o-gold
I wanna go there
I wanna be there
I wanna find it

Verse 2:
Wherever the river starts
I wanna drink it
Wherever the lamb is born
I wanna be there
Wherever the love is
I wanna find it

Chorus:
Sunsets
Moonbeams
Pot-o-gold
I wanna go there
I wanna be there
I wanna find it

Verse 3:
Wherever the desert starts
Wherever it runs dry
Wherever there is no love
I wanna go there
I wanna be there
I wanna find it

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When I fall, I'll try to get back up
Dust off myself
I must try and remember

Chorus:
Though my world has been bombed
Everything turned inside out and shaken all around
I have to get back in the saddle
Pull my socks back up 
And Just keep moving

My days have darkened
Depression is an unpleasant, twisted companion
Like the core of a dead apple
But I must try and remember

Chorus
Instrumental Solo

Life keeps passing me by
My window is rolled down
But dry air is flying in on no magic carpet
Just try and remember
Just try, try, try

Poster Child

Poster Child

Verse 1:

Sitting there

Box in hands

Wondering if they'll live

Pin attached to their shirt

Saying:

"Your path is unfolding still"

Chorus:

Stand up

Be strong

I didn't know at first

I am now a poster child

Verse 2:

Cures call

Cancer

Diabetes

Anxious hearts

Upset minds

Nothing is never set it stone, never

What do we know?

"Your path is unfolding still"

Chorus:

Stand up

Be strong

I didn't know at first

I am now a poster child

Peace Child

I want to share something my Mom composed just this morning. Happy New Years!!

Peace Child

by Mom

December 31, 2010

Peace, Child, peace!

Be at peace in this valley of tears,

in this world of sorrow and confusion and fears.

Hold on to the things you know matter,

even if they seem upside down to you right now....

the love of your father

the love of your mother

the love of your brothers

the love of your God.

These things are still real and they are still yours. Hold on to them.

Courage, Child, courage!

Have courage in this scary place,

in this world that’s changed at such a scary pace.

Believe in the good things you know to be true,

even if the sad things seem bigger right now....

your incredible courage

your precious loving heart

your amazing wisdom

your gifts that you have to share with a hurting world.

The world needs these good things from you. Believe in them.

When God closes his eyes,

He sees you shining, shimmering.

He sees you crying, struggling.

He sees you growing, working.

He sees your nightmares and tears.

He sees you loving, laughing.

He sees your anger, your pain and your sadness....

...and your strength, your sweetness and your open heart.

And He says:

Peace, Child, peace! Courage, Child, courage! I am with you. I have dreams for you.

Resolutions

I know it's been almost a decade (NOT, but feels like it) since I wrote last.

For a few months now, my life has had some bumpy roads. I've had off days, and good days. The last few months of 2010 has been a time I don't want to remember. My Nana died of bowel cancer, and my family has had a real shock to us all.

Ever since I received the devastating news that my Nana only had a few more months to live (I received the news in August) I turned my heart to Gods. That is what inspired this blog. I began praying, and writing about my struggles. At first I tried writing songs, but found that poems came easier to me. Then I began praying. That's when my pain was ever so lightly lifted, but not all.

Anyways, the message I'd like you to get out of this is that my resolutions for year 2011 is to be able to learn from this hard time I'm going through and someday be able to encourage and inspire others that, though life can be hard, things will get better eventually.

Thanks,
Grace Miller

Happy Holidays

I would like to do a shout out for those I am especially making this for. All my teachers. So I am wishing you a wonderful winter break and a Happy New Year. 

Feel free to look around my blog too, and comment. 

Winter Photoshoot

Gods Beauty Shop

A few years ago, there was a big snow storm. This is taken on Christmas Day

I love how I was able to capture the flowers in the foreground, and the background was blurred w/out

me doing anything.

I love nature. It's art without us trying anything. It's a given.

Gods way of bonding a tree and a squirrel. The tree a great friend to the squirrel. Lending it's long branches and sheltering those little critters. 

This is right outside my kitchen window. Love finches. 

Every blade of grass is an individual. So amazing. 

It's a slide!! Yay!!! Love the rain. 

Mystical

Beautiful magical birds. 

I love the light in this one.

Love the pollen that finally came after the big storm. 

A pinecone

Raindrops are a work of art

Love how the sun hit right behind the Space Needle

That's my dog. Love the sunlight here. 

Love the light

Love the sky

Two 'lovebirds'

Friends come in big or small packages. Love them all

Profile Shots

Made It

School has been a struggle. Though today I made it back. I am writing this mostly for the loved ones who know my situation. My prayers have been answered by Him who I love thee dearest. He is my eternal Father. Thanks for all of your support. Happy Thanksgiving!!!

One Voice Through Many

Lately, I have been purchasing a lot of songs off of iTunes that are Christian/Gospel genred. I find if very cool that God can use so many children to convey just one message. His love for all of us.

Some of the singers/songwriters that I have on my iPod are: Britt Nicole, Jessie Daniels, Brandon Heath, MercyMe, The Museum, Revive, Sanctus Real, Chris Tolmin, Group 1 Crew, Bethany Dillon, Rush of Fools, Craig Duncan, Kutless, and many more.

I am a true Christian, and am blessed to have God in my heart.

May He lead you with strong hands,
Bless you all,
Grace Miller

Call to the Father

Father,

I am calling upon you today, for I have sinned heavily. Lately a lot has been going on. A big thing that has taken place, is the loss in my family. On October 31, 2010 you took my Nana up to heaven with you. Anyways, I am praying, asking you to give me new eyes. To see the world differently. You are the only one, who knows my destination in life. Please, please wash away my sins and let me be clean. Give me a new beginning now. I am giving my heart to you. Before my Nana had died, I had said some very hurtful things that I can never take back. Please forgive me. In your sons name I pray,
Amen

Prayer

Heavenly Father
Veteren's Day is coming close. I know you remember this day. When you spoke to your children for the first time. You brought your soldiers home from battle to their families. You took those in pain, and brought them nearer to you. Allow me to say how blessed I am to know you are watching over your children. I don't think anyone would go to War unless they knew they were serving for their country, especially for you. You are our answers, let us call upon you on this day of grief and joy as we remember those whose lives were taken, making our world a better and safer place. In your sons name I pray,
Amen

Veteren's Day

Veteren's Day. A time to remember those who risked their lives to make America a better place. And our world. Ever since I can remember, and I am only a high schooler, but my school has always had the day off for Veteren's Day.

As the day draws near, and as I mature, my thoughts on Veteren's Day has become a happy one. Though, people do die fighting in wars, and it's very sad to watch families loose loved ones. There's something I want to tell you, loss is a hard thing to swallow. And if you weren't affected by it, something is wrong with you. But, always remember that God has a plan for you. And had a plan for them. They wouldn't give their lives, to make yours better, to be mean. They did it because of their love for you. Also, God speaks to us through that, whenever he claims a life from this world. He is taking someone from their pain, and washing them clean of their sins, and granting them a second chance. Would you want a loved one to suffer after a gun wound, always be in pain, and live throughout their days in a hospital, never able to see the outside? No. So know God is speaking to you when he takes a brave man who risked his/her life.

A few years ago, my Grandpa passed from a lung problem. He wasn't out on the battlefield with gun in hand and clothed in uniform for World War II, he still had done something significant though. He did however help those who did clothe themselves in uniform, and held a gun in their hands, fight in the war, back here in the States. I am blessed, knowing that my Grandpa had helped change America.

I know so many people, who have lost loved ones in war. Though Veteren's Day was originally a celebration for those returning home after World War I, I believe that over the decades since, that the meaning has changed drastically. Through my eyes, I see Veteren's Day as a day to remember those who have died serving our Country. And those who still are right now. Rest In Peace.

An Empty Void

Verse 1:
Such an empty void
A gap that can never be filled
Ones vision
So blank
I can no longer read the words
They float off the page
Voices echo throughout the days
Nothing seems to be perfect

Chorus:
When lost
You will find me
Through my darkest hours
You are the only light
Within the depths of the tunnels
Guiding me
Simple enough
A torch
Glimmering the way

Verse 2:
Am no longer afraid
I will grasp Your hand
Just don't lead me away
Everyday I yearn to know the truth
Answers aren't my friend
I'm one needing to know everything
Through Your daughters eyes
I can now see

Chorus:
When lost
You will find me
Through my darkest hours
You are the only light
Within the depths of the tunnels
Guiding me
Simple enough
A torch
Glimmering the way

Prayer

Lately, I've really been touched by Gods grace for us all. He is beyond all others. So just now I composed this saying. Please enjoy.

He is above all others

He is the shepherd

Jesus is the lamb

Sacrifice

Flesh and soul

He gave us His only Son

Whom died before us

Rising in three days

Nails drilled through his hands

Jesus killed our sins

So we could be cleaned

We lift our hands in prayer and song

The Father 

Holy Spirit

And Son

Worshiping our Father

Our Holy Father

His love for us 

Is the only love

Indescribable 

Unseen 

Let us live for Him

Let us not love another

It is never too late

To ask Him

Brothers and sisters

Lift your hands

Baptize

So you to can see His eternal glory

And never ending love

Amen

Nana's Song

Nana's Song

By: Grace Miller

October 31, 2010

Verse 1:

Don't cry child

Now is my time

I've waited, waited, waited

Take my heart and

Hold on to it tight

Don't let go

We will meet sometime

I am only leaving for a short while

Chorus:

When I close my eyes

I can see Gods

Smiling, shimmering 

His hands are open

My time on Earth 

Was only a quick visit

Don't forget

I will always be there

Verse 2:

John don't worry

With my heart 

I give to you

Cherish it

Hold it

Don't let go

We will meet again

I am only leaving for a short while

Chorus:

When I close my eyes

I can see Gods

Smiling, shimmering 

His hands are open

My time on Earth 

Was only a quick visit

Don't forget

I will always be there

Verse 3:

Marybeth your tears are like a waterfall

Though why so sad

Your tears should be of joy

I am moving on

But not away from you

I am moving closer

One thing

Don't forget

I will always be there for you

My star will be the brightest one in the sky

At night

I will be watching over you and your brother closely

Live the fullest life

And well see each other someday

My heart

Is yours

Chorus:

When I close my eyes

I can see Gods

Smiling, shimmering 

His hands are open

My time on Earth 

Was only a quick visit

Don't forget

I will always be there